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  • Won’t Be The Last Time He’ll Ignore Me – Heart-Strutter.org
    Pod Fashion Style Camellia Fiber Co Capture the Castle Cognitive Buyers Fried Rice Connoisseur Note To Self The Epitome of Quiet The Line The Nife En L Air The Simply Luxurious Life To Universe with Love Friends Elizabeth Heather Jared Ketta Lorik Soo Soo Misc Reads Cereal Magazine Matador Network The Believer Logger Undone Journal Won t Be The Last Time He ll Ignore Me I feel like constructing a Found Poem Other people s words always somehow manage to explain in better and a shorter amount of words what I mean Life is so unexciting There s nothing bad going on to me personally but there s also nothing amazing going on And so I feel that I ve come to depend on things I never believed in for excitement There is honestly nothing to look forward to until after college This feels like a standstill Maybe I ve done all the growing up I can do while in college Give me my next venture already The sentence I m about to type almost seems to nullify the above paragraph I went to the MTV Movie Awards on Sunday I got to see a few celebrities pretty up close and then even more from far away Let me tell you Megan Fox is flawless Taylor Lautner is way too buff for16 but it s hot as hell Miley Cyrus is awkwardly tall and has a horrible way of walking Eminem got offended and left the awards Sandra Bullock playfully slapped Ryan Reynolds It was looooads of fun Oh lol I get it This is probably depression without a ton of sadness Just lack of emotionality The Sims 3 releases today Sandy Rona and I are going to Best Buy at 10am to go get our copies I guess it s exciting but at the same time well don t know where I was going with that Eh Let s fly in the sky Posted on June 2 2009 Author Brigitte Categories Life 3 thoughts on Won t Be The Last Time He ll Ignore Me Citizen K says June 2 2009 at 9 48 am Believe me friend I understand the feeling UCSB does that to the best of us and people like me too I don t know if there is one solid solution to the problem but I do know that my fix was to force myself to get out there meet new people do things I never thought about before I ended up getting into Brazilian Jiu Jitsu Ballroom dancing seriously learning Spanish and a whole heap of weird activities most of which I haven t tried since Some of them went well others fell apart right away but I m firmly of the opinion that college is less a time to get that fucking piece of paper or find out what I m going to do with my life and much more a time to figure out yourself what s important to you what are

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  • Random Facts About Me – Heart-Strutter.org
    lists help me mentally The only thing I ve eaten today is a bag of peanut M Ms The reason for this is because my aunt and I are too similar Neither of us particularly likes the time it takes to cook And as a result she has no food in the house The housekeeper cooks on Tuesdays and Thursdays but she barely started cooking 12 13pm and I m kinda hungry My birth certificate has my name as Adela Brigitte De Soto Menendez This is way too long The double last name is very problematic to my life My name on my California ID takes up two lines As if having two last names weren t complicated enough my first last name has a SPACE in it In people s databases at the bank when I m making a hair appointment I can never be found because they never type my name with a space even after I ve said it So I have to explain to them D E SPACE that s important S O T O Ah there s your account No really I had to call the bank 4x to get my name changed My credit card had De Soto as my last name and my checking savings account had Menendez DESPITE the fact that both cards have typed on them De Soto This led to me not having access to my credit card through online banking because the last name was different and thus didn t recognize me as owning both accounts My father s last name is NOT even De Soto It s SOTO non complicated But somehow there was a mixup at my birth and I ended up with De Soto and also with my mother s maiden name attached to it After getting my accounts settled online the man did something SUPER bootleg He deleted my middle initial B and made my middle initials DE and set my last name as SOTO I have a feeling I m going to experience many struggles purchasing things online when they ask me to input my name I go by my middle name because I hate my first name getting pronounced UH DELL UH UH is not my favorite sound It s AH DEL AH ADELA in Spanish That is why I think names like Adelaide Adelaida and Adelyn are all very pretty They don t have the dreaded UH sound My middle name is even more complicated than my first name It s Brigitte NOT BRIDGET I m not a damn bridge Think in French And since no one can say my middle name in French I just go by BRI short just like me That s literally how I introduce myself to people I keep it memorable I want to change my name to Brigitte Menendez France and Spain joined in perfect harmony Do you have anything that is super problematic to your life Posted on June 16 2009 December 31 2014 Author

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  • Lush Big Hair Affair Kit – Heart-Strutter.org
    g if the Karma Komba is also 15 g you ll get what I mean when you see both The full size is a bit more expensive at 9 75 but for 3 5 oz and like the sample size is an odd shape Jungle Solid Conditioner This item also comes with the kit without further option but Jungle is one of their best selling so it s nothing to get worked up over The sample kit s bit is also 15 g and it smells somewhat like sweet avocado from what I can tell and looking at the ingredients points to why The conditioner also claims to detangle hair which any good conditioner should do but also to leave straight hair shiny and curly hair bouncy It seems very multi purpose and sure makes a lot of claims I m looking forward to using this on my hair to see if it s really all it s cracked out to be The regular size comes in a cylindrical shape weighing 3 5 oz for 9 95 Liquid Shampoo The options here are limited to Big 30 g sample or Curly Wurly 20 g I spot a bit of discrimination toward the curly haired gals While I chose Big I also got an even smaller free sample of Curly Wurly to try as well If you imagined their liquid shampoos to be like your regular shampoos think again Whichever one you choose choose wisely because you get 10 off your next purchase of the full size version of the liquid shampoo of your choice Big claims something similar to what its name implies and that s volumize fine hair and add shine I don t have fine hair and I don t have thick hair either I m just right in between so this shampoo is first of all not particularly suited for my hair type I tried this product once already right after the hair moisturizer and immediately I felt my hair go from extremely soft to sort of dry I could literally feel my hair thickening or getting a bit harder rather The shampoo has bits of sea salt in it but none of it got stuck in my hair my any means The sea salt plus the lemon lime mixture in it dried out my hair I think After my shower my hair felt very straw like and stringy but thicker It s somewhat difficult to explain but I had never seen my hair have that sort of texture I m already not really a fan of this product but a lot of people like it I think if you have very fine straight hair this might be the product for you I think it also did give my hair more volume but curly haired girls likely don t look for that as the mass of curls is already voluminous enough I do have to say though that my scalp feels pretty clean not as oily as

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  • The Salon – Heart-Strutter.org
    5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 Culinary Local Milk Oh My Veggies Oh She Glows The Chalkboard Two Peas Their Pod Fashion Style Camellia Fiber Co Capture the Castle Cognitive Buyers Fried Rice Connoisseur Note To Self The Epitome of Quiet The Line The Nife En L Air The Simply Luxurious Life To Universe with Love Friends Elizabeth Heather Jared Ketta Lorik Soo Soo Misc Reads Cereal Magazine Matador Network The Believer Logger Undone Journal The Salon Is greater jealousy a sign of greater love Questions like the one above were asked in 17th and 18th century Salons in France in which the upperclass spent their days The question was posed to me and my classmates by my professor yesterday in my French 50BX class literature class Many people are inclined to say no to the question I think my opinion is similar but I do believe that jealousy in moderation reaffirms a great love Someone said in class yesterday that jealousy meant you didn t trust your lover I completely disagree with that it assumes that jealousy gives rise to distrust and I don t believe that s the case What I believe is that a little jealousy is healthy and common It s perfectly natural to feel like your love is yours and yours alone That s the purpose of marriage after all fidelity so why shouldn t they be all yours That twinge of jealousy just means you feel a sense of urgency and danger and we are animals that feel threatened naturally Though I ve never been in love so I can t speak from experience about any of this All I can ever do is

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  • Reactivated – Heart-Strutter.org
    25 26 27 28 29 30 31 Culinary Local Milk Oh My Veggies Oh She Glows The Chalkboard Two Peas Their Pod Fashion Style Camellia Fiber Co Capture the Castle Cognitive Buyers Fried Rice Connoisseur Note To Self The Epitome of Quiet The Line The Nife En L Air The Simply Luxurious Life To Universe with Love Friends Elizabeth Heather Jared Ketta Lorik Soo Soo Misc Reads Cereal Magazine Matador Network The Believer Logger Undone Journal Reactivated Reading about depression and bipolar disorder in my Abnormal Psychology textbook is getting me depressed It s showing the inevitability of the return of my symptoms despite being depression free for a year I m trying to recall this past year and honestly it s been wiped from my memory I don t remember the non depression the symptom less good days I don t remember anything Every so often I suffer through these memory resets and I m pretty sure I ve blogged about this at some point or other though no one believes me Events places people they all seem so far away It s like all progress is lost The decisions I made I can t remember why I made them The place I am at today I can t remember how I got here What happened this entire year I just lost a year of my life Should I be upset No I m pretty apathetic I think some symptoms are coming back And that s why I m realizing that my memory just reset Everything and everyone agitates my fragile ever changing mood I don t want to bother dealing with anyone Friends are useless Or at least that s the mindset that I m in despite that statement not really honestly holding true I m so tired

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  • Preparedness! – Heart-Strutter.org
    was frantically typing into my iPhone s Map Downey Police Department but I wasn t in Downey I was in the familiar LA area where I lived for most of my life near Crenshaw It s funny I always dream of my old house in LA and that area round there me always thinking in the dream that I m in Downey Anyway I was looking for the police department because I had gotten raped and needed desperately to report the crime AM had also gotten raped but by UA yeah the driver so it was one confusing mess My rapist wasn t really introduced in the picture but I kept trying to wake myself up from the dream and with every attempt throughout the night morning I couldn t remember if I had REALLY gotten raped or if it was just a dream Not exactly pleasant Finally Sandy called me at around 8 30am and woke me up from the dream thank goodness But I couldn t shake the dream and I felt so uncomfortable It wasn t until about 20 minutes after I d woken up that I realized the rape wasn t real it was just a dream Only one person right now could possibly understand the anxiety I m still not dealing with it I don t know how Not to worry I m in no danger Then last night I dreamt that my brother and I were playing a game in front of my mother We were all swimming in this great big lagoon with a golden bridge above us and everything was fine But my brother and I decided to up the ante and ran up the golden stairs it was definitely tiring and there when we reached the top to the bridge there was another lake Well it looked like a bridge but instead of any floor there was only water I think he and I started to drown and then my loud music alarm woke me I just remember the sky was rather gray and drab but the coloring of everything was really nice hard to explain I ve also dreamt that I dyed my hair cleaned the apartment gone places etc It isn t until I think of these things in real life do I realize with some confusion that I recently dreamt of them You know that confusion where you don t know if you already did something or not It s like that except I can t discern dreams and reality anymore well except for the fact that the apartment is dirty still and my hair is not yet dyed Reality is the only thing corroborating reality right now Otherwise my mind would wholly believe everything in my dreams My memory is getting more blurry as well This might also have something to do with the fact that I ve been sleeping a lot lately I m trying not to but I just get so tired Usually when I

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  • Dissociative Amnesia – Heart-Strutter.org
    The Chalkboard Two Peas Their Pod Fashion Style Camellia Fiber Co Capture the Castle Cognitive Buyers Fried Rice Connoisseur Note To Self The Epitome of Quiet The Line The Nife En L Air The Simply Luxurious Life To Universe with Love Friends Elizabeth Heather Jared Ketta Lorik Soo Soo Misc Reads Cereal Magazine Matador Network The Believer Logger Undone Journal Dissociative Amnesia Oh my god why am I in therapy again Those were the words that kept crossing my mind as I sat in the waiting room with my hands shaking I pretended to read the newspaper but I felt nauseous and most definitely I needed to cry For a whole year I ve been FINE Now all of a sudden I m depressed All day today I was super restless and I couldn t concentrate Then in Psych class I started feeling sad I was just taking notes I have such a headache I resolved to make an appointment with my good ol therapist Dr Bimbela Coming back from 2pm I figured it was better to make the appointment sooner than later The appointment time 2 30 I didn t have enough time to feel prepared It was strange seeing him again like a recurring nightmare only not scary Just come on it s therapy And I m going again I have an appointment scheduled for an hour next week and then half hour the week after that It s a time consuming CHORE to be depressed This isn t what I need the depression right now Let s just forget this all happened On the brighter side of life Last night Rona and I went to Aroma Bakery Cafe in the Valley at about a quarter to midnight It s this lovely classy casual place where the patrons

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  • There’s No Connection – Heart-Strutter.org
    days Search for Subscribe to Blog via Email Enter your email address to subscribe to this blog and receive notifications of new posts by email Email Address Random Posts Sunday Fun You Do It so so WELL PLAIN De de de clutter Press Harder May 2009 S M T W T F S Apr Jun 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 Culinary Local Milk Oh My Veggies Oh She Glows The Chalkboard Two Peas Their Pod Fashion Style Camellia Fiber Co Capture the Castle Cognitive Buyers Fried Rice Connoisseur Note To Self The Epitome of Quiet The Line The Nife En L Air The Simply Luxurious Life To Universe with Love Friends Elizabeth Heather Jared Ketta Lorik Soo Soo Misc Reads Cereal Magazine Matador Network The Believer Logger Undone Journal There s No Connection What happened to April 6th That was the day I said Spring quarter is beautiful Soooo much for that I feel like I talked about too many things all at once There s this internal confusion right now But mostly I just don t care Can this quarter please end I have nothing to talk about At least that means I m not depressed Damn though I rather have something to talk about 9 minutes until class starts and only 2 other people are in here besides myself People must not want to be in here It is a drab sort of class Can I stop rambling What do I want Depression so I can feel real again Since when is it so wrong to be normal I m feeling like this again Not good Whateverrrrr I mma play Farm Town

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